Imagine (How It Could Happen)

I call you at work and say
Don’t worry I’ll make it quick
You say you’ve got a minute
That’s when I pop the question

This is one of those situations
That I have imagined
Over and over again
In my head, in my head.

It’s a known fact that everyone
Goes to Yankee Stadium
Say what’s that on the screen?
Oh look it’s you and me
It’s a little cliché, I’d say.

So to avoid being a total tool
I take you to see Regina at McCarren Pool
And as the rain falls down
I get jewelry out as you turn around

I hope I’m not being too pretentious, Hoping you’ll say yes
But to be fairly modest, you have a choice I guess
But I’m a believer in fate, and an optimist
Some things are just to great to be coincidence

I’m too wired to sleep, you get ready for bed
You ask if I had something to say, I look like you have three heads
You say, “Oh, I must be imagining things”
Tonight is not the night, I put away your ring.

I’m a believer in fate, and an optimist
Some things are just to great to be coincidence.
I’m a believer in fate, and an optimist
Some things are just to great to be coincidence.

Imagine (How It Could Happen) by Theo Martin

GLBT Statistics: The Majority doesn't hate the Minority, and they support them more then you'd think!

Remember that not too long ago, things were a lot different! This is a mark of improvement!

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Three-quarters of U.S. adults (75%) favor either marriage or domestic partnerships/civil unions for gay and lesbian couples. Only about two in 10 (22%) say gay and lesbian couples should have no legal recognition. (Gay and lesbian couples are able to marry in two states, and comprehensive civil union or domestic partnership laws exist in only five others and the District of Columbia.)

U.S. adults are now about evenly divided on whether they support allowing gay and lesbian couples to legally marry (47% favor to 49% oppose).

Almost two-thirds (64%) of U.S. adults favor allowing openly gay military personnel to serve in the armed forces. (The current "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" law bans military service by openly gay personnel.)

About six in 10 (63%) U.S. adults favor expanding hate crime laws to cover gay and transgender people. (Hate crimes laws cover gay and transgender people in 11 states and the District of Columbia, and an additional – 20 states' laws cover sexual orientation but not gender identity.)

A slight majority of U.S. adults (51%) favor protecting gay and transgender people under existing laws that prohibit discrimination in employment, housing, and public accommodations. (Existing non-discrimination laws cover gay and transgender people in only 12 states and the District of Columbia, and eight other states' laws cover sexual orientation but not gender identity.)

Nearly seven out of 10 U.S. adults (69%) oppose laws that would ban qualified gay and lesbian couples from adopting children. (In several states, gay and lesbian couples are banned from adopting.)
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Interesting things! Read the full story here at HRC: http://www.hrcbackstory.org/coming_out/

We Might As Well (Since We're On Our Way To Hell)

So, I walk in
I brought my two friends
And we’re sitting at the bar
Drinking Heinekens.

And that’s when you,
That’s when you walk in.
You caught the corner of my eye
And you turned my head,

Like a hook.
My sights are locked in
But my safety is on
in case you got a boy friend!

Like a hook
Of a song in my head
I can’t repress the words
And soon I just start singin’

Come on, Come on
You know its wrong.
You know you know
Don’t act like you know better/
Come on, It’s wrong
Isn’t that why
its seems so right?
Hey.
Come on, Come on
You know its wrong.
You know you know
Don’t act like you know better
Come on, It’s wrong
But if
We’re on our way to hell…
We may as well.

Maybe its because
I’m going for the subtle thing
you haven’t been
able to tell

That I’m thinking
I didn’t travel,
all this way
To keep my hands to myself

Let’s go
They don’t care
Don’t you know
It’s true.
Let’s leave
Let’s get out, please
Don’t you know
It’s you.

From the time
That I met you
I knew, Oh yeah, Oh, Oh, I knew.
From the time
That I met you
It wasn’t even an hour ago…

Come on, Come on
You know its wrong.
You know, you know
Don’t act like you know better
Come on, It’s wrong.
Isn’t that why
its seems so right?

If we’re on our way to hell.
Oh yes, we’re on our way to hell,
If we’re on our way to hell…
We might as well.


We Might As Well (Since We're On Our Way To Hell)
copyrighted 2009 by Theo Martin

Get up, Federico.

You are a flattened tire
folded over a hanging wire
like a Salvador Dali picture
Of clocks melting in the fire.

Well,
Isn’t it avant-garde,
How your posed in such a way
That your body is displayed
To soon be sold away.
Get up, Federico.
Go home.

I know, We could be
Hangnails of the eyes,
Catching the looks of strangers
Studying the arm around my shoulder
Shielding children’s sight
from the wonder.

And, yes, I maybe be into theater,
The attention and dramatics,
But I’ve got a lot to live for
And I’m not about to risk it.
Get up, Federico.
Go home.

In my head,
I’m a surrealist,
So I know a place where we’re possible
But I know it doesn’t exist yet,
So I will turn the other cheek until
I can be more then lyrics
With which you fumble and struggle
To mold into my image
But you find words are less malleable
Then my hands, myself,
My heart, and my help.

Oh, The persistence of memory
Will never let me
Forget these things
That sting my mind
From the back of my eyes
Until my tear ducts erupt
And build up and cry:

For God’s sake,
Get up, Federico.
Get up and go home.
I don’t want you here anymore.
Your not the muse I’m looking for.

Get up, Federico.
My casa by the sea
Isn’t where you’re meant to be.

You’re a crime against humanity
Beneath the dying olive tree.
You’ll finally find peace,
But it won’t be next to me.


Get up, Federico.
copyrighted 2009 by Theo Martin.

I live in NYC

My scene is where
There's cats in the record store
Chasing lint all over the place
Flicking tails at the consumer
Blowed smoke in their face
I'm where the strong become the meek
Cars stop for jaywalkers in the street
The elephant eats
Out of the underdogs hand
And as long as you have a empty hat
Then you dont need a band
Just loiter
Street corners
Sing some R&B
where the spectrum
Forms a circle
Thats where you'll find me
I sleep in the aisle
and live where the Opposites meet

SPEAK OUT, ACT NOW: Let's stand with Bishop Robinson!

If you haven't heard (in which case, I can't really blame you because until recently neither have I) of Gene Robinson, you're about to.

I love wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gene_Robinson

Bishop Gene Robinson, as summarized in a few words by wikipedia, is "best-known for being the first openly gay, non-celibate priest to be ordained a bishop in a major Christian denomination believing in the historic episcopate. His homosexual feelings were privately acknowledged in the 1970s, when he studied in seminary, was ordained, married, and started a family. He went public with his sexual identity and divorced in the 1980s. When delegates to the Episcopal convention were voting on the ratification of his election, he was a controversial figure. His election was ratified 62 to 45. After his election, theologically conservative parishes have aligned themselves with bishops outside the Episcopal Church in the U.S., a process called the Anglican realignment. His story has appeared in print and film "

Bishop Gene Robinson was chosen to deliver Sunday's inauguration concert prayer after much dismay for the decision to have Reverend Rick Warren, an opposer of gay marriage, for the inaugural invocation.

Hear his prayer here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWWAnitUCw4
(video sucks but the audio works)

Read-a-long:
"O God of our many understandings, we pray that you will…
Bless us with tears – for a world in which over a billion people exist on less than a dollar a day, where young women from many lands are beaten and raped for wanting an education, and thousands die daily from malnutrition, malaria, and AIDS.
Bless us with anger – at discrimination, at home and abroad, against refugees and immigrants, women, people of color, gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender people.
Bless us with discomfort – at the easy, simplistic “answers” we’ve preferred to hear from our politicians, instead of the truth, about ourselves and the world, which we need to face if we are going to rise to the challenges of the future.
Bless us with patience – and the knowledge that none of what ails us will be “fixed” anytime soon, and the understanding that our new president is a human being, not a messiah.
Bless us with humility – open to understanding that our own needs must always be balanced with those of the world.
Bless us with freedom from mere tolerance – replacing it with a genuine respect and warm embrace of our differences, and an understanding that in our diversity, we are stronger.
Bless us with compassion and generosity – remembering that every religion’s God judges us by the way we care for the most vulnerable in the human community, whether across town or across the world.
And God, we give you thanks for your child Barack, as he assumes the office of President of the United States.
Give him wisdom beyond his years, and inspire him with Lincoln’s reconciling leadership style, President Kennedy’s ability to enlist our best efforts, and Dr. King’s dream of a nation for ALL the people.
Give him a quiet heart, for our Ship of State needs a steady, calm captain in these times.
Give him stirring words, for we will need to be inspired and motivated to make the personal and common sacrifices necessary to facing the challenges ahead.
Make him color-blind, reminding him of his own words that under his leadership, there will be neither red nor blue states, but the United States.
Help him remember his own oppression as a minority, drawing on that experience of discrimination, that he might seek to change the lives of those who are still its victims.
Give him the strength to find family time and privacy, and help him remember that even though he is president, a father only gets one shot at his daughters’ childhoods.
And please, God, keep him safe. We know we ask too much of our presidents, and we’re asking FAR too much of this one. We know the risk he and his wife are taking for all of us, and we implore you, O good and great God, to keep him safe. Hold him in the palm of your hand – that he might do the work we have called him to do, that he might find joy in this impossible calling, and that in the end, he might lead us as a nation to a place of integrity, prosperity and peace.
AMEN."
( http://www.hrcbackstory.org/2009/01/video-bishop-gene-robinson-gives-invocation-at-inaugural-concert.html )

Sign this petition asking President Obama (I love saying that) to keep his word and recognize GLBT rights!
http://www.hrcactioncenter.org/campaign/robinson
Signatures mean mucsle, and that will give us the strength we need to REALLY make this a Era of Change!

You are the runny piece of cheese...

You are
The runny piece
Of cheese
On hot day
In August

Approximately
One hundred years ago
That dropped
The atom bomb
In Nagasaki
And Hiroshima,
Japan, and
Killed Millions
of Innocent
Men, Women,
and Children.
And you’re not even sorry.

Well,
Time flies when you’re ending the world,
One idea at a time.

copyrighted 2009 by Theo Martin.

(there's an idea behind this one. comment and maybe I'll deem you worthy of knowing it!)

Tenth Grade Drama and the Indian Independence Movement

"There are many causes that I am prepared to die for

but no causes that I am prepared to kill for."

-Ghandi

Vengeance is not a winding road
It’s a forest,
you get lost in it.

If you attempt it, You walk in there alone
I’ll have none of it, I won’t involve it.

You want closure, you want quick escape
But you’re playing monkey in the middle with the blame
Keep the ball in your court if its gonna end the game
You can’t instigate to alleviate the pain

I’m not the kind
Who would like to die in battle
I, on the other hand,
Believe the best endings are peaceful
We argue like its for sport
Attacking back and forth
Your last letter sent the ball in my court
Now its my turn to fight back with more

You want closure, you want quick escape
But you’re playing monkey in the middle with the blame
Keep the ball in your court if its gonna end the game
You can’t instigate to alleviate the pain

But then I remember my objective
Is to end this, so I have two options
I could throw it back
Continue this another day
Or keep the ball, and
Befriend it like in Castaway

I’d rather learn to love this hand-sewn ball
of pain and guilt you’ve tossed
Then learn to love the monster I’d have made
if God forbid you ever lost-

-Your temper, which is long gone
Your mind, which was never screwed in right
Your morals, Your principles, Your love and hope
You are but an empty can to kick down the street as I pass and yet:

I want closure, I want quick escape
But I’m playing monkey in the middle with the blame
Keep the ball in your court if its gonna end the game
You can’t instigate to alleviate the pain
Eye for an eye
You can’t instigate to alleviate the pain
Makes the world blind
You can’t instigate to alleviate the pain
Eye for an eye

Your temper is one thing you can’t rid of
By losing it
By taking it out on…

And, My pride is one thing that cannot die
Unlike my body
Unlike my life…

NEW YORK: What drugs are the MTA suits on?

"New Yorker Wants Boycott Of MTA After Fare Hike
One New Yorker has a plan to protest fare increases for buses and subways that are expected to wallop commuters next year: He's calling for a one-day boycott.

Louis Kenny has been passing out fliers calling for a boycott on the day fares are expected to go up June 9, 2009. He says people should walk, take a bike or call in sick to work that day instead of relying on public transportation.

The Metropolitan Transportation Agency says it needs to raise fare revenue by 23 percent because of a massive budget shortfall.

In calling a boycott, Kenny says, ''It's time to show the MTA who really runs New York City's public transportation.'' Kenny says the agency should reinstate the 50-cent fare on the Staten Island ferry and charge more for advertising.

If the proposed budget is approved and the state Legislature doesn't come up with more money for the MTA, the service cuts could go into effect as early as June. In addition to fare hikes, the MTA is expected to slash service, which includes subway lines and bus routes. "

[read the full story here: http://wcbstv.com/topstories/subway.fare.hike.2.871128.html]

Break down of fare hikes:
Pay per ride -> $3 (Originally 2$!)
30 day unlimited -> $105 (Originally 70$)
14 day -> $60
7 day -> $32
Express bus -> $6.25*
Access-a-ride -> $6 (300% increase)
*Students will no longer get half fare on Express buses.

--> Theo: Are you kidding me, economy?! You give 50 gajillion dollars to AIG and they go to the Bahama's the next day, but you can't give 2 billion for New Yorker's everywhere to hate the world a little less? Really?
Well, even so. There are other ways the MTA can get their cash back.

THEO's THEORYS (aka Unused Solutions)

• Number 1: SHUT UP. How much money do they spend on telling us a thousand times to watch the f'n gap? There are signs, announcements, advertisements, commercials, videos, and more! How about this: Stop all of that, and just paint on all the doors and floors and walls "CHECK YA SELF BEFORE YOU WRECK YA' SELF: If You Hurt Yourself Out Of Your Stupidity, Don't Sue Us Because You're Stupid."
  How about that? Bet ya' people will be looking at their feet a lot more when they know they can't make a pretty penny out of being a clumsy doofus head.*
  
• Number 2: BE GREEN. Come now, capital of the world! Big apple of the Atlantic, fashion center of the universe, second only to Paris: Since when have you been so behind on the times??? This is beyond fashionably late. Green is the new black. The new everything! There is so much money to be made! And all the hipsters and hippies from Williamsburg to Chelsea are just dying for the day you get a hip pulse and throw out your diesel trains for some solar powered ones!
  Because, that is something we do have over Paris, sunlight. That could be what puts us in a fashionable first place!
  
• Number 3. KNOW FAIRNESS: TRANSPARENCY IS IN, just ask Britney! Take the money you get and show us where it goes. It's easy. Just be more New Yorker like and whine about all the bills you have to pay. I'm sure its tremendous, for all the fuel to transport 8 million people by bus, taxi, and train. And I haven't even started on all the money it kills every time someone holds open a door. I know!
  We're here for you if you need to talk. We're sure its stressful and costly. Tell us all about it, MTA. We'd love to know where your money goes.
  

In the mean time, let's protest this nonsense here, fbookers:
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=49896765890&ref=nf

Peace and Protest, mo' fo's!
Theo.

PS: It's noted. I need a Thesaurus. Don't even start on that comment, I'm aware :)

SPEAK OUT, ACT NOW: Way You Can Give!

Ok, ok, so you read my last S.O.A.N. post and you weren't diggin the whole "membership" scene. That's chill. But, now, you have no excuse.

Here are your options:

1. GIFT IT: Well, if you don't want a membership, but you know someone who does, give a Gift Membership to them. See, now everyones happy! https://secure.ga3.org/03/honorandgift1
2. DEAL IT: Make your business donate. Pay an annual fee and you can brag about how you support Equality and such to your clientele. There's nothing wrong with boasting!http://www.hrc.org/get_involved/hrc_federal_club.asp
3. EDUCATE IT: Do you identify yourself as a student? Get involved, join/start a club, and help them help everyone else! You'll get free stickers! https://secure.ga3.org/03/campusmember
4. REMEMBER IT: Donate in someone else's name, as a memorial. Celebrate their life, preserve their legacy, and continue the fight for equality in their name. https://secure.ga3.org/03/memorialgifts1
   
   and for my FAVORITE way to give...
   
5. SHOP FOR IT! They've got shirts, accessories, backpacks, napsacks, inaguration coins, staplers, etc! If you can't find it, you're not looking. If you still really can't find it,... maybe they don't have it. But check the site for what you want/need first! Then you can buy your stuff AND support the cause all at once, thus kindly and nonviolently subduing two birds in one attempt, so to speak.
   http://hrccornerstore.myimagefirst.com/store/
   

So... remind me.
Why are you still on blogger?

Yeah, thats what I thought.

Peace and hope,
Theo

Criminal (Labels Are For Records)

My friends fight the status quo and stereotypes
And in the end they’re only helping your rights
And yet, you have the guts to come to me and say
“PUNK give me your money” Whoa ok, alright, Ok.

Are you a criminal
Because I’m told that you’re a criminal
Or are you a criminal
Because you’re trying to rob me?
It’s only a label, please
Don’t be so cynical
I’ve been judged before
But I wont let it stop me!

Just because I
look like a little kid
Who’s short
And white
DOESN’T MEAN
I didn’t learn martial arts
For six years
And I don’t know how to fight!

You’ll get yours
With a left and then right
Here comes the hook
So smooth I don’t even try

Are you a criminal
Because we say you’re a criminal
Or are you a criminal
Because you tried to rob me?

If that’s it man you can’t be so cynical
I’ve been judged before.
Yeah, I’ve been judged before.


CRIMINAL (Labels Are For Records)
copyrighted 2009 by Theo Martin

SPEAK OUT, ACT NOW: Help HRC reach 2,009 in 2009 by JANUARY 20th!

If you're reading this blog, and you're not yet a member of the Human Rights Campaign, something's up.

Here: https://secure.ga3.org/03/h_member09

Its easy, simple, and for the greater good! When was the last time you did something for Human Rights? Today? Yesterday? A week ago? Never?
Well, whatever your response was, giving is a good thing! And you can never have too much of a good thing. Hence, sign up!

Here: https://secure.ga3.org/03/h_member09

Donate once a month. Its easy and you'll be helping out a good cause once every lunar cycle. They'll take credit or debit cards, and if you're nearing overdraft, they won't take your donation for that month. They only will recieve what you can give!

Come on! Go: https://secure.ga3.org/03/h_member09

You don't even have to give a lot. I donate eleven dollars a month, thats it. My reasoning is, I'm a broke college student with really patchy income, and yet, I used to pay $10 a month for a membership to a gym I rarely visited. So, I canceled that gym membership, bought myself a pair of shoes, and join HRC and I do not regret it one bit!

Seriously, go: https://secure.ga3.org/03/h_member09

Since August, I've donated 55 dollars. Could I cough up that much all at once? Not really. But it adds up over time, and within one year I will have donated 122 dollars, which goes towards towards programs like Camp Equality, teaching everyday nobodys how to be activists, and HRC lobbyists who fight anti-GLBT rights legistlation every day. These two examples I have witnessed first hand, so I know they're legit.

What are you waiting for? https://secure.ga3.org/03/h_member09

Speak out, Act now, Make the world a better place - One membership, one month, one donation at a time!

Peace, Hope, Change.
Theo.

PS: GO https://secure.ga3.org/03/h_member09
There, I have drilled this into your head.

Theo's Thoughts #3 :: Are we "born that gay"? It's a theoRy

[I found this article very interesting! Heres the first half of it, you can read the rest via the link. Hope you enjoy! Quote it for you next arguement with a 'phobe! -Theo]

Born that gayDo recent neurological studies prove once and for all that homosexuality is biological?
By Robert Burton
Sep. 12, 2008 As the accuracy and resolution of brain imaging improve, we can expect virtually all behavior to be shown to be associated with demonstrable brain changes. It shouldn't come as a surprise that imaging studies of sexual orientation are increasingly revealing anatomic and functional differences between "straight" and "gay" brains. But demonstrating such changes doesn't answer the age-old question of how much our sexual preferences are innate and how much they are fueled by environmental exposure, cultural norms and conscious personal choices.
One way to distinguish the effects of nature from nurture would be to look at brain regions believed by neuro-anatomists to be fully formed at birth and impervious to subsequent environmental effects, both physical and psychological. Focusing on such brain regions, a research team at the Karolinska Institute in Stockholm, Sweden, headed by neuroscientist Ivanka Savic, obtained MRIs for 90 adult volunteers -- 25 straight men, 25 straight women, 20 gay men and 20 lesbians. Using the latest quantitative techniques for assessing cerebral symmetry and functional connections between various areas of brain, Savic was able to demonstrate highly statistically significant differences between straight and gay brains. Gay and lesbian brains more closely resembled the brains of straight volunteers of the opposite sex than the brains of heterosexual members of the same sex.
In their study, reported in the June 16, 2008, issue of the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences, Savic said, "This is the most robust measure so far of cerebral differences between homosexual and heterosexual subjects." Although Savic admits that her study cannot distinguish between genetic or prenatal intrauterine environmental changes, such as relative differences in sex hormone levels, her studies do suggest that our sexual preferences are, at least in large part, determined by the time of birth.
Not long after reading the study, I got a call from neurologist Jerome Goldstein, M.D., 67, once a fellow resident in the UCSF neurology training program. This fall, Goldstein, an internationally respected headache researcher and sometimes controversial gay activist, is giving a series of lectures on the innate biology of gayness. He was phoning to ask if I had seen the study and if I might write about the latest scientific evidence supporting the biology of gayness. I decided to interview him instead. Goldstein is compact, rapid-talking and constantly on the verge of impatience. Yet during our conversations he was subdued, confessional in tone, with frequent pauses to gather his thoughts; the seriousness of his concerns was palpable...

Read the rest of the article/interview here:
http://www.salon.com/env/mind_reader/2008/09/12/gay_neurology/index.html
It only gets more interesting!

Think about it!
Then, Email/comment with your thoughts, if you'd like to share.
theoreticalm220@aol.com

Peace and hope,
Theo

The Falling Man (Fake It 'til We Make It)

You’re so fucking young
This isn’t even going to affect you
Except it’s going to scar you for life
But otherwise it doesn’t matter

I am one of your many strings to pull
And you are one of the few of my iron shackles
That chain me to this fucking town
Like a collared dog staked to the ground

You make me feel like the falling man
Do or don't, Stay or go, I'm damned
I’m getting out of this burning building
And jumping out the window
Because I want the fresh air in falling
And to see how far my luck goes

There is no sense in standing in the flames
The lights are bright, but they’ll never be mine
There is no point in fighting for my fame
The lights are bright, but they’ll never be mine
Not when you’re around.
No, not when you’re around.

My words are a shot in the arm
You think they’d hurt so much worse
You’ll wince and cringe, As if they did
But it’s a pain that’s well rehearsed
I know this act isn’t your first.

My words are a shot in the arm
But you’re surrounded by doctors and nurses
Waiting on you, on hand and foot
With tissues for your dry eyes


You know what? Fuck it.

Maybe it’s the people in this room but
the future’s pretty hazy from here, but I
Know that we use to have something That I
could hold on to tightly when I
Felt like I was falling in to the raging rivers
That would drag me through life
as if I was everyone else

I felt like I was falling in to the raging rivers
That would drag me through life
as if I was everyone else

Not to long ago
I knew
you were that the log
that I caught
To keep my head above water

I feel like I’m drowning now
But it all must be
All for the better
Because looking back
At what I looked forward to
The future has a lot
To do with you.

So I’m gonna fake it til I make it
If I don’t see my name in lights
I’ll trace it in the stars tonight
Lets fake it until we make it
If the words don’t feel just right
I’ll let the pen just write, Just write

There is no sense in standing in the flames
The lights are bright, but they’ll never be mine
There is no point in fighting for my fame
I’ll trace my name in the stars tonight

Maybe all we need is a little
Confidence
To change our luck
To get us there
To get us home

Maybe all we need is a little
Shove
To change our luck
To get us there
To get us
Home.

The Falling Man (Fake It 'til We Make It)
copyrighted 2009 by Theo Martin

Theo's Thoughts #2: I might grow to hate technology someday...

Tonight, I flipped through some pictures a distant aunt of mine had scanned and uploaded on to her picasa. I suppose flipped wouldn't be the right word her, since there were no photo album pages. Clicked through?

Whichever. They were interestingly shuffled, and I enjoyed discovering two pictures next to each other where her and her husband sat in similar positions between both photos.

One picture was from last July.
You can see their fresh-from-the-obnoxiously-long-cruise tan in stunning color, taken by their outstandingly-expensive camera that they have no right owning since they can't use the word "focus" grammatically correct in a sentence. They both have similar short haircuts, but God Forbid you point that out, as males and females NEVER have the same hair cuts. (Tell that to my hick cousin's greasy mullet. She should hear this.)
My aunt's hair is growing in a little grey (she soon saw a hair salon which fixed all that) and my uncle's was also quite white. Their faces aged well, as much as they complain about it. They've got laughter wrinkles, not worry wrinkles or frown wrinkles, or looks-of-general-dislike wrinkles. Just the ones that stream down from your nose and around your mouth like tears of joy, and those crow's feet that ruffle at the edges of your eyes.
Both formed from smiling and squinting, respectively, as you often do when you laugh.
Or, when you have a sneeze stuck in your nose.
Regardless, you get it.

The other picture was much older, I want to say fifties? Sixties? They were teens. Perhaps young adults. No grey hair, no wrinkles, no stupid rub-it-in-your-face tan. They're young, and in love, and still have the same hair cuts, only its long, flat, and symmetrically parted. They look innocent and wide-eyed. Clear skinned and smooth-featured. At least, I think their skin is clear. Of course, this picture is black, white, and blurry.

Its not the camera man's fault, its the camera. It has that age old distortion to it. The 1960 equivalent of that fuzzy look 80's VHS has compared to 00's DVDs, so its a similar blur but twice as worse. And as I look at it, I can almost hear my Aunt saying,

"
Of course.
A good picture of me
taken with a crappy camera.
A beautiful point in my life
that came before all this
digital mega pixel its-on-your-phone

whatchamacallinits.
Great! Ha!
"

I think its kind of funny.
I mean, it is my baby picture, my toddler years, my childhood and young adulthood that I will be looking back on for the rest of my life, as it progresses. And as I look back at my older young adulthood, adulthood, and old age, I will revisit the most recent memories all the way to the earliest over and over again.

Irony:
As I do so, I will also be looking at pictures from the newest technology to the oldest form of photography that I have ever lived to see. And when I'm old and pictures are capture in multiple dimensions with perfect color and balance every time, I'll look back at these pictures from college of my friends and I at a height in our lives and say:

"

Damn.

High definition sucks.

Another good picture taken by a crappy camera.

What else is new?

"

Just some thoughts.

Appreciate what you've got before its gone!

And to quote those tacky Dove commercials,

love the skin your in!

It is hard to do sometimes, I know,

but its not exactly something we can afford to be bad at!

(No joke, plastic surgery is very expensive!)

:')

Peace and happiness,

Theo.

Troilus and Cressida

You have it all
The green eyes, the smile
You have it all
The courage, the style
You have it all
From your laugh to your jokes
From your goals to your hopes
Like finding something long lost
That I forgot to look for
I feel like I’ll never look for anything again

Everyone’s looking into the spotlight
We’re hiding backstage in the folds
All of this, no one knows this story
At least it never was well told
But with a beauty like that
In a situation like this
We could try to explain forever
But we’d never do it justice

You have it all
The green light, the floor
You have it all
From the bed to the door
You have it all
From my head to my toes
From my joys to my woes
Like finding something long lost
That you forgot to look for
I feel like I’ll never look for anything again

I’m yours, You have it all
And its just beginning
Because
You, You’re something else.
You’re something else. Something else.

Everyone’s running for the battlefields
You’re pull me by the hand to the shore
We lie in the beach grass just smiling
We almost forget about the war

Have you ever looked at something
Or someone Or nothing
And wished you had a camera
So you could record everything,
the entire moment that’s fleeting

Can you catch five senses in panorama?
Because I’m sitting here looking at the sky
And I can’t help but think about life
When everyone here will eventually die
Love seems like its reckless to try

But you
You have it all
All I’ve wanted, I’ve needed
You have it all
Everything I have, I will give it
You have it all
Everything that I call myself
Because
You, You’re something else.
You’re something else. Something else.

Hey,
Looking all around but when our eyes meet
Can you feel the burning? We’re creating heat
Keep moving closer in time with the beat
I’m giving it all and its all yours for keeps

But You have it all
All I’ve wanted, I’ve needed
You have it all
Everything I have, I will give it
You have it all
Everything that I call myself
Because
You, You’re something else.

You’re something else.
Looking all around but when our eyes mee
You’re something. Something else.
Keep moving closer in time with the beat
You’re something else.
Everyone’s looking into the spotlight
You’re something. Something else.
All of this, no one knows this story
You’re something else.


Troilus and Cressida
copyrighted 2009 by Theo Martin

SPEAK OUT, ACT NOW:: Police Brutality in Mass. = HATE CRIME

[I don't suspend disbelief when reading articles and news reports, so read this with a grain of salt, as the source isn't exactly an official news source or anything. BUT then again, with police brutality as bad as this, and as covered up as this - who would want to cover it and face all the legal pressure? The establishment has a lot of money and they can do a lot of damage. Keep that in mind when you decide for yourself what the facts are, and if you think they are face, HELP OUT and SPEAK OUT - Theo]


http://mysite.verizon.net/freebarryscott/provincetown.html


**"To show your disgust for this corruption and disregard for the Constitution, ask Attorney General Martha Coakley to investigate this crime perpetrated by the Provincetown Police. She needs to be held accountable for police and hate crimes!
She can be reached at (617) 727-2200 or via e-mail: Martha Coakley"

[Can we get a phonebank on that number ASAP? If you too, join me in my grievance, then have a pizza party with a few friends who would relate, bring your cells, and make some phone calls. Don't let them get away with this. Once again, HELP OUT and SPEAK OUT - Theo]

The Tetris Effect

You’ve walked in the same shoes so often
Now you can’t walk home with out them
You’ve always had someonehold your hand
So long
Now they’re empty,
so you imagine, and pretend,
But so far
She’s your phantom limb
You swear she’s still there
She’s not there

Blinking lights in your sleep
You see her when you dream
She’s trapped in your mind it seems
And she can’t be released

She’s your Tetris effect
You swear she’s still there
No one’s there
No, No one’s there
She’s your Tetris effect
You swear she’s still there
But, no one’s there
She never was there!

You gotta
Escape
Get away
Don’t hate the player
Hate the game
Escape
Get away
Try to remember
Life before her name

You’re not the same person
You’re still stuck in your repetition
You’ve talked on the phone so long
You tell her stories,
You sing her songs

A resounding hum, a series of beeps
Echo around and through your ear canal
Never to escape somehow
And she can’t be released
Its that buzzing noise you've heard so long
The drums still pound when the sound is gone

You’re not the same person
You’ve walked in the same shoes so often
You’re not the same person
They’re empty but you still imagine

Escape, Friend
Get away
I won’t hate the player
I'll hate the game
Escape, Get away
Try to remember
Who you were
Before she came
Escape
Escape
Escape

A resounding hum, a series of beeps
Echo around and through your ear canal
Never to escape somehow
And she can’t be released
Its that buzzing noise you've heard so long
The drums still pound when the sound is gone

The Tetris Effect
copyrighted 2009 by Theo Martin

How To Make The World A Better Place via **Get To Know Me First**

What a motto/mantra.

"Get to know me First."

Story of my life. A story of my life that I will eventually post more of on the blog.


BUT this isn't about me.
Well, not only about me.
Its about a lot of people like me.

How often are you judged on first glance? Judged by your race, your appearance, your gender, etc. Well, imagine being a part of the GLBT community, a permanent aspect of the human psyche that is also discriminated against, but not completely visable. Being discriminated against for being GLBT is like beginning a journey with a person you met as you get to know each other and create a friendship, then that person suddenly ditching you on the trail once they find out you're one of 'them'.

Get To Know Me First is an Post-Prop8 Anti-Prop8 campaign to teach the public the TRUTHS, and the in's about coming out and living in a gay family. They say, Don't judge a book by its cover, get to know these families and these stories before you make you choice.
Or, as I like to say, Hey, Don't knock it 'til you've tried it, buddy!
Just kidding.

Anyway, Check it out:
http://www.gettoknowmefirst.org/Overview.html
Watch the full vid. George Takei gets deep! He goes there, and I love him all the more for it. (You know, He's the guy from Star Trek. Wikipedia it, ok? Yeah he's on there!)

Oh hey they have a blog too:
http://www.gettoknowmefirst.org/Blog/Blog.html

Join the face book group too:
http://www.facebook.com/wall.php?id=1039530006&banter_id=1097168140&show_all#/group.php?gid=67255087624

Last link, I swear:
http://gettoknowusfirst.org/
Watch their five 30 second ads!

Sorry, I got trigger-happy about the linking. It happens.
But its good stuff! So... Help out!


Peace and Hope.
Theo.

Theo's Thoughts: How We Can Make The World A Better Place #1

How We Can Make The World A Better Place
Five Steps and a handful of Links every GLBT advocate needs to do, know, have, and see:

1. If your in, come out. Simple as that.
   Ok so that's not a link. If I could, I'd link your facebook/myspace/blogger page right here, right where you can edit your gender/interest/status/orientation etc. And if you're not comfortable with putting the label right there for the world to see right off the bat, then take a page out of my book and blog about it. If you don't want to express all of who you are, at least be honest about what you care about. There's no harm in caring about the fate of humanity and wanting to make the world a better place.
   
   
2. Join the HUMAN RIGHTS CAMPAIGN to stay up-to-date on... everything.
   <http://www.hrc.org/get_involved/volunteer.asp>
   I get most of my info from them, along with several other local sources. But if you're looking for a way you join millions of people around the world for this one cause, this is the place to go. You can know whats going on for equality rights around the country down to your home town. But if you're looking for news a little closer to New York...
   
   
3. EXTRA EXTRA! - Read the NY Blade, or any GLBT news, and be IN the KNOW:
   <http://www.nyblade.com/>
   A mix of local and national GLBT news. It's what I personally read. They've got pretty much everything. If they don't, there's always the more local:
   NY Q news <http://www.newyorkqnews.com/>
   Next <http://www.nextmagazine.net/> (another personal fav)
   Chelsea Connection <http://www.chelseaconnection.com/>
   As The Grove Turns <http://www.asthegroveturns.net/>
   
   And then theres the less local but still awesome sites such as:
   The Advocate <http://www.advocate.com/>
   OUT.com <http://www.out.com/>
   HIVplusMag <http://www.hivplusmag.com/>
   GayWired.com <http://www.gaywired.com/>
   Bilthe House Quarterly <http://www.blithe.com/>
   Whosoever (Gay Christian site) <http://www.whosoever.org/>
   
   Find what works for you, bookmark it, and visit it frequently. You can stay up to date on the progression of the cause AND get your daily bit of journalism with your morning coffee/espresso/chai latte/green tea/matte, etc.
   
   
4. Read HRC's "SPEAK OUT" handbook to Advocacy for ideas
   <http://nmmstream.net/hrc/downloads/meetup_docs/HRCActionGuide.pdf>
   How else can you help out? What can you do? What can you give? This guide has every basic, you'll see me reference it a lot. Visit this blog again in a few days and I'll give a basic rundown of what it says, along with some extra links on how you can follow its Action steps locally in the Big Apple.
   
   
5. LINKS TO MORE LINKS (Its Linkinsanity, I know!)
   
   <http://www.newyorkqnews.com/links.html>
   <http://www.gaycityusa.com/>
   <http://www.hrc.org/actioncenter>

Email me at Theoreticalm220@aol.com if you have any specific linkage requests, questions, or comments in general. And if you find anything interesting, you better message me with your findings! (This isn't Holes, so no you don't get a day off of work, but it will be much appreciated)

More About Moi

I dig slam poetry, music, and conversation.

I could be a history teacher, english teacher, accountant, etc.
But I think I'd rather be an activist for equality and humanity with my music and do something with my life.

I love meeting new people and picking their brains.
Email me at Theoreticalm220@aol.com, penny for your thoughts?

I'm a bit of a home-body but when I do get out, I get out.

I consider myself an Exceptional Vegitarian, as in, I make exceptions for sushi.

I love seeing shows, movies, etc.
I can ride the unicycle, and enjoy rock climbing.

If I'm not reading, I'm writing.
If I'm not writing, I wish I was.

My favorite thing in the world is making people laugh and think. I enjoy it more then laughing myself.

Someday, I'm going to be on television.
This is my start on the internet.

Pencil Diving right into entry #1

Hey.
I'm Theo.

Today on the train, my ticket from Hicksville to East NY was punched by this conductor who I've gotten several times before, and we started a conversation. His name is Rich, for those of you who take the LIRR and may meet him today, and he's pretty cool. He told me people call him "Shoes" though, from his days in color guard, always shining his shoes. Eventually he said he had to go but he added, "I'll see ya around, I never forget a face." Then he winked with this weird twinkle in his eye as if he were Santa Clause or just some other kind of dandy child molester.
Yeah, we'll see about that, Mr. Shoes.

I thought I'd start of with a short 'snippet' of my life. Swear I've got better.

Few things about me.
I hate introductions. Even though, they are important.
I like just jumping into things. You can only start off slow for so long.
I'm the kind of person who doesn't test the pool water before I dive. It's more exciting that way.

Music, art, and literature are all very important to me. I like to perform, draw, and write just as much as I like to listen, observe, and read. Museums are pretty cool. Park's are better though.

I live in New York, New York, but I'm always traveling upstate or to LI for various reasons. I have scattered friends across the United States.

I was at one point, a history major. Sometimes I miss it.

I love meeting new people. You'll see I'm not your Average Joe.
Actually, I hate that euphemism. I think after Joe the Plumber, we need a new Average someone. Can we get a petition started on that? Lets make it Average Kyle from now on. Just for shits and giggles.

I'm pretty nocturnal. It's currently two hours from sunrise right now.

I'm very interested in philosophy, psychology, sociology, theology, politics, and the paranormal. I don't know exactly where my stance is on any of it, although I try to be opinionated I am easy to convince. I like discussion and debate, and all of these topics bring plenty of it!

I believe that's enough for one night.

If you like what you've read, found it interesting, or just need a friend, myspace/fbook me.

www.myspace.com/theoreticaltheo

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/profile.php?id=1097168140&ref=name

And you can email any time, day or night at theoreticalm220@aol.com


Peace and thoughts,
Theo.